Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Treadmill tomorrow, back on track. I have to do it first thing in the morning or it's just not going to happen. I also have my interview at 10 so I think 7:30, Monsieur treadmill and I have a date.
I would like to see another 6/7 pounds gone in October, so here's to it!
Some of you may not realize it, but by and far this past year has been probably the worst year of my life on a personal level. I say that because me being out of work allowed me to be there for Chelsea in her last year of high school, around to get her ready to go off to college, available for a last minute up and down the East Coast road trip and I wouldn't have changed a thing if it meant losing all that. It also allowed me to be available when my father had a stroke and lost the ability to use his right hand and most of the use of his right side in general, thus making him unable to drive anywhere. At the same time, my mother also had health problems, on a much smaller scale, but problems nonetheless and I was able to assist with both of their physical therapy schedules, Dr.'s visits, grocery shopping, paying bills, etc. It was time well spent as well because my relationship with my parents, especially my father has not always been the best. This brought us closer and I found that my mother is quite awesome! On every other level however, including my own health, I was out with meningitis for 3 months, obviously financially and career wise, it has been disastrous. So, I give you the new mantra. Voila, not pretty but I just have to keep reminding myself... this too shall pass.
I'm not out to impress people with anything, I'm not about keeping up with the Jones's or BEING the Jones'. I don't think I ever have been. I just want to be able to pay my bills, give my child the education she deserves, and be able to go to the Doctor when I need to. It's not much to ask, really, it isn't. If I thought that God was an unforgiving God or a vengeful God, I would believe that this is payback for all the really horrible things I've done in my life and then it would be justifiable. I have to believe otherwise. I have to.
Leaving for lunch with Chelsea. I'll feel better later, promise.
Monday, September 28, 2009
“To like many people spontaneously and without effort is perhaps the greatest of all sources of personal happiness.” I try and automatically give people I meet a clean slate. Benefit of the doubt that they will be awesomely nice people if you will. I have been bitten in the butt more often than not. Does this change my perspective on how to approach a new person, friend or acquaintance? No. I try and be a positive part of friend's lives. I figure we all have stuff going on that to us is major/big/stressful. Why add to the negativity? This doesn't always work with my own family though. I think that with family you feel safe and so the least bit of negativity may come out harsher because you feel safe to express it there. I am sincere in my hope for people to have BRILLIANT days. I am working on keeping things positive, even when surrounded by what, at the time seems like insurmountable odds. I hope that even those who I don't see as often as I would like due to some reason or another, realize that I still try and bring some light into their lives even if only via facebook, im's, texts or email. I am hopeful that the light they bring me shines back at them tenfold.
Interview this morning went well. Wednesday I meet with the actual person I would be supporting, so that will be fun. Tomorrow, lunch with Chelsea, I'm taking her up an ethernet cord for her Mac. Today, Y'all have a BRILLIANT BRILLIANT day.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Chels made it home Friday night, too late really for us to catch a flick so we decided to catch movies today. Saw "9" and "Julie and Julia". Both were good. I would have seen "9" even if it had gotten terrible reviews, because Elijah Wood is the main character. I would have seen "Julie and Julia" as well because I love Meryl Streep. I also got to spend the day with Chels. WIN WIN WIN :)
You know it's time to rethink your friends when you get a text message that states " My time in FL is almost up as I will be at sea w/Royal Caribbean, Love to see everyone one more time before I leave. Free next Saturday, having a blowout at Backstage Billiards in LBV starts at 8 and we'll close it down", and you have no idea who sent it to you. All the numbers in my cell have names attached to them. I have so many friends who are performers and in hospitality in general, and people change cells all the time, so the confusion is understandable. Here's the thing though, someone took the time to invite me, I feel bad a)not knowing who it is and b)RSVP'ng to a blind number. I thought other friends would know something about it but no one seems to be saying that they will be at the event. I think we should show up blindly and hope for the best. That way, no one's feelings are hurt we didn't show and at the same time, I find out who the person is AND I get to play Pool, which I love to do. Lame, I know. Don't judge, it could happen to you.
I am addicted to http://www.apartmenttherapy.com/ . I am jonezing to move out anyway and then top it off with all these ideas in one small site... argghh. Addicted I tell you!
It's raining now, a gorgeous thick rain. Of course my mind thinks, rain, dark outside, why aren't you in bed?
I haven't been blogging about it because it makes me sad, but I am waaaaay bigger than I want/should be. I have been making small steps to change that and to my delight, it's paying off. This week, I lost two pounds. No, it's not Biggest Loser material, but that makes a total of 6.2 pounds this month and I still have a few days left in the month. I'm happy that it's making a difference. It's not just about the treadmill, it's about the intake.
Limiting the crap and adding good. It's not rocket science, I really don't see why it's taken me this long to understand it. I'm not on program (Weight Watchers), I'm just using my head. Am I still going to have a Twistee Treat Butterscotch and Caramel Sundae when I want? You can bet on it. Am I going to beat myself up over it the next day? Not a chance. I have a goal in mind and a "carrot" to wave in front of me, as I do well when given incentives, so I foresee success.
I don't know about you but Sunday is calling my name. Sundays here mean a leisurely wake up, an indulgent breakky and the paper. I savor the paper, and read almost every section except sports, because really, I don't care. At all. Unless of course it's College Basketball season. Go Duke. I have no affiliation educationally to Duke. It's all Christan Laetner's fault, just like my love for University of Maryland is Boomer Esiason's fault. I didn't graduate from either school. But I digress
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Treadmill: 30 minutes-defeated that machine -- YAY!
I am half way through the Rubbermaid tub of papers to cull. It was cathartic throwing things away. Will do the rest tonight while I watch my guilty pleasure true crime shows... unless of course L pummels me to death with the remote to watch Mythbusters or a new Top Gear (you never know, it can happen...).
Prepped the hair for the dyeing tomorrow. Friday I have two, count 'em, two interviews so I wanted the hair sorted prior. Friday is also when the Chels is coming home WHOOT WHOOT! Trust me when I tell you Loreal for True Brunettes (if indeed you ARE a brunette) is your best friend until you can actually get to your regular stylist for a dye job or highlights. This made my hair thicker, the highlights were like caramel, butterscotch and honey all rolled into my natural color and I was more than thrilled with the results. It usually runs in the $10-12 range, but with coupons (and come on, when DON'T I have coupons), and a good Target sale, I can, and in this case, did, get it for $6.99. Love, lurve, LUV it and recommend it to all. To the point where I would even say pay the retail $10-12 - it's worth it and so are you.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
The House of Blues, Orlando has two for 1 tickets, $10.13 plus tax, available to the The Psychedelic Furs/Happy Mondays show. As much as I know I can sit through and enjoy Richard Butler, I cannot at all enjoy aging bovver boy Shaun Ryder and because I don't know who is opening for who...I pass.
Last night did a list of lists, (stock photo) ended up with 250 things I want to do before I die. I guess that means it's a bucket list. I'm sure there is more, but that was a great start. It was fun and things were in no apparent order and some things I can't do now due to financial concerns (set up a scholarship in Chel's name at FSC for single parent children who need financial aid) or because the people don't exist yet, (Grandchildren), but I am going to make a big run at the list. I mean I must have at least another 42 years I reckon, if not more as only the good die young.
Chel comes home on Friday for the weekend. We live an hour away from the university so she felt it was just silly for me to drive up for parent's weekend. We'd rather be here and go to the movies and chill mother/daughter anyway. I'm excited to see her. Just got off the phone with her and she seems good except for roommate problems, cramped quarters will do that to you. If I had my way she would have gotten a larger room or more roommates, it's difficult when there's just two of you. Also, I'm going to have her go through her stuff and decide really what she wants to get rid of because I need to get started on this culling in the house.
The treadmill, alas, did not happen. Other stuff is though. Those folders we bought at Target? Being utilized this evening. I am purging every slip of paper that is in a big old Rubbermaid tub and sorting it into HOUSE DECOR, TRAVEL, FASHION, PRESSIES, FINANCIAL, PHOTOGRAPHY, and FITNESS categories, and they each get a folder. I feel uber organized just looking at it all and I haven't even started the actual purge. I know it sounds ridiculous coming out of my mouth when I say it but "I can't create under these circumstances" or "I can't even think in here" is true when I have disorder around me visually. I'm not anal and I'm certainly not BREE from Desperate Housewives as far as the house being spotless, but I need order. This is a good start on it. Kicking away...
Monday, September 21, 2009
“What a wonderful life I’ve had! I only wish I’d realized it sooner.” Colette
Made Chili (stock photo-my memory card was over at moms house) over the weekend. Was very happy till I realized I had forgotten the green, red, and yellow pepper mix.. it still tasted amazing, just the right kick to it without melting my face off... love comfort food, I think the next project is 5 cheese mac and cheese.
Target was having AMAZING clearance on some school supplies and although Chel is sorted, I needed some accordian files to corrall all the culled articles and or pressie ideas I liked, so L and I went (she to get Starbucks- it's our closest one and I to grab the files). I don't know how other people are able to file or organize their mags and or articles/pages they want to keep, but this seems to work for us. Walked out with 4 for $7.50 and she treated, so that was lovely of her! SO many other goregous things I wanted to pick up, but house shopping not on the agenda yet, so... back home we went.
I start treadmilling again tomorrow. This is not something I am looking forward to. My other alternative is to give up bread and Diet Coke altogether. So you understand, then....
Lunch will be Chili. Dinner will be Pasta Primavera, me thinks, with some gorgeous crusty artisan sourdough bread, salivating just thinking about it, now. I'm actually getting all these cravings out of my system becase as I said, tomorrow is D day for this tummy and it's evil mignons, my arms... and it's a lost cause... because now, I really AM quite hungry - Lunch it is...
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
This is what I officially consider the New Year, break out a new notebook... those of you who know me, I'm never without my notebook(s). Time to color the hair again, start the treadmill routine again, I like to start the September clear. So, I have my shiny clean purple notebook and a fave pen, off to take over the world!
Colin Farrell is procreating again - that can't be a bad thing.
I'm sure someone more astute than Ally Sheedy said it first but she recently said "The only constant in my life is change. " I loved that and find it hits close to home.
Fall is coming. I can't be happier. If I had my way, it would be September, October, November all year round... I don't care for the heat of Summer or the cold of Winter... so I'm kind of like baby bear of Goldilocks and the Three Bears... I want things "just right" and it's never more right than Fall as far as I'm concerned... Fall means plaid to me, wool, fires, slow cooker comfort food, all good things.
Started updating the house. Took down a photo of Chelsea in Leicester Square taking photos of pigeons and put up a framed copy of a painting that states simply "I love you every day", put up some of my own photography, started really looking at books and videos that need culling. Much to do on the punch lists and why not start looking seriously at the lists now that September has come? Chels gifted me some Mexican heather and told me it supposedly sprouts like a madman, so I may have to repot it when it gets bigger but now it looks just fine in my also gifted purple pot on my desk. It's showing to be a lovely day :)
Friday, September 11, 2009
Bounce 2 month Dryer Bar(this way I don't buy dryer sheets) 2.24
4 Tide 2x Ultra Single Packs (1 load a piece)4 x 97cents 3.88
4 Reeces Peanut Butter cup 2 in a pack (2 dark choc, 2 Milk) 2.08
2 Loaves of Archer Farms Artisan Sourdough Bread 1.98
5 Archer Farms Artisan baguettes 4.95
2 Healthy Choice Frozen Meals 2.04 each 4.08
1 Can of Edge Infused Shave Gel 2.99
2 RENU eye lubricants for contact lenses 2.64 each 5.28
Total $27.48 before coupons
Bounce Target Coupon 1.50
Bounce Manufacturer Coupon 1.00
4 Tide Mfc 1.oo each 4.00
2 Reeces .52 mfc 1.04
2 Reeces .54 mfc 1.08
7 Artisan Farms Target Coupons 6.93
2 Healthy Choice Mfc 2.00 each 4.00
1 Edge Infused Mfc 2.99 2.99
2 RENU Mfc. 2.00 each 4.00 Total of Coupons used $26.54
Total after Coupons = $.94
Total Paid to Target = $1.72 for $27.48 worth of groceries.
It was a good trip :) Now, off to get ready for The Pet Shop Boys concert tonight.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
So, speaking of the birthday weekend... Friday night, my sister, (we'll call her L) and I are seeing THE PET SHOP BOYS at HOB. In the 80's, my sister and Neil (the singer, yes, the one yawning, there...thanks to the record company for such a great photo on the album cover!)had a meeting of the minds on a tube ride in London. She immediately recognized him, he acknowledged that she recognized him and she smiled at him and left him to be. This also happend in Harrods with George Michael of WHAM - my sister - she's like a magnet, I don't know.... This is the way of my sister. She doesn't want bubbles burst. I understand that. You don't want to find out that in real life that people you respect musically are real tools. I respect Mel Gibson as an actor and his choices in roles and genres. But at the end of the day, he's a tool. So no bubble burst, let's just be happy for the music. I mean come on, when's the next time Neil and Chris are going to come to HOB Orlando? Glad we got tickets before Neil's vanity got the best of him...
Speaking of the $$$$ that I am picking up on Friday, almost 90% of it is going to Chel's tuition bill. The bill itself is only $1600, but I just don't have it. I have been picking at the balance since we got the bill late July but I still have a big chunk of it still to go and live in fear that the college will pull her earnings from her part time job as a lifeguard to go towards the tuition as opposed to her using it for you know, LIVING? I will be the first person to tell you I was not anywhere as near as prepared as I should have been and now I'm paying the price. The other 10%? That would be Groceries.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
My horoscope on this apparently significant day says I'm supposed to JUST DO IT, stop talking about it... whatever IT is. Do what’s really important and then keep going. See it through to the end. I know what IT is, I think we all do down deep, we just don't know how to start, or are afraid, or just don't think we can do it. Well, I suppose today, I'll listen to what the oracles have to say, who knows, it can't hurt right? I may be pleasantly surprised where the day, week, rest of the month takes me.
I look forward to the rest of this month like a child waiting on the ice cream truck. It has a lot of potential. What I do with it I guess is how it will grow or fall.
This list is really just for my own good - if I put things in writing I tend to do them with resolve as opposed to just putting them on a back burner.
To do before September is over: Clean Slate!
Get a day job Purge bookshelves Purge CD's
Purge clothes Start treadmill again 3x week
Get back on Points program Purge the Eeyores.
I think that's a large enough list of goals. I have another 22 days - 3 weeks- to accomplish this, I have every faith in me.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
I don't care for many veg and find it difficult to eat them alone, so other than soups, salads and vegetarian lasagna or pasta dishes, as a whole, veg escapes me. I wish it wasn't like that so I am making an effort (ok, so it's really mainly for my waistline) to incorporate more veg in to the diet.
Come on in, the gate's open. Welcome to the craziness. I have chocolate cake :) Get to know me a little It's not complicated. I'm a foreign service brat, parents traveled here there and everywhere, was in Panama at 6 weeks old, graduated Jr. High in Madrid, Spain; High School in Lima, Peru; lived in London for a few years after that, California, Maryland and now I'm based in Florida. I don't require much. I'm addicted to Diet Coke and I love Orange Popsicles.
She comes home every two weeks or so, (we're an hour away from the college), I think more for me than for her, but I'm not complaining.
One of my obsessions. Sleeping Beauty (Princess Aurora or Briar Rose- whatever you want to call her) and Prince Phillip at Magic Kingdom, Walt Disney World. I'm thinking about getting a shirt made up that says "PRINCE PHILLIP'S BIT ON THE SIDE" - how do you think that would go down? We live here in Florida, so you'd think I'd have a season pass. I don't but should. I love all things Sleeping Beauty related. I also love WDW :)
I love Black and White photography and primarily use it in my portraiture. I shoot digital now and miss the hell out of proper film, but as I don't have a darkroom built in the house, the cost to print, develop etc. can get insane especially as I shoot SO many photos in a sitting. I love to shoot people but have started shooting architecture as well.
Performance is always a fun thing to shoot. I get to see artists I love and they, for the most part, have been happy with the results. It's a win win.
"nothing worth having comes without some
kind of fight, got to kick at the darkness till it bleeds daylight" -